come what may

Saturday, September 13

continued due to post being too long:D

today,the first thing i saw
when i entered yp room was the slide titled
"principle of ownership"
i didnt really understood it
but i thought that was quite natural since
Uncle David's talk always had a slight degree of chim-ology
:D

but subsequently,
i got it

Sources of Irritation
this was very real
i know im a person who cant stand ppl who cant make their own decisions
so i tend to take the initiative:

in school i often had to get the birthday cake just because i rmbed
i often wonder and grumble
why couldnt the ppl who get fetched volunteer?
i was most annoyed
to carry a cake on the bus is troublesome;
irritation of inconvenience
its also like what someone shared abt;
irritation of duty
and then i feel that im not appreciated when my birthday didnt seem significant

there were times when ppl asked rethorical qns too
i couldnt help but feel why cant they think of the ans themselves

and you would have read before
how ive wondered why people say something and do something else;
irritation of consistency

i guess irritation can be and IS a blessing :)

how i wish i was taught this long ago
my first solution: defend myself
then after much thought, it was to keep inside
which often cause me to feel really heavy
:/
i learnt today that i would vent the anger somewhere else;
passive rebellion

as time passed
i got closer to the right thing i shld do
which i found out today!

God is doing the construction work
there is one near my school
and i dont like it because it takes a zillion yrs
to reach the next bus stop and i could be late
noone really likes construction work
but when done,
the completed work is sweet,
is good
is pleasing

ask;
what is the character goal?

hes still working on me
to make me what i ought to be

- genuine love and no deadlines
:D

-7:59:00 AM
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