come what may

Tuesday, August 5

there are many things i regret saying
there are others i regret saying not
there are somethings i really want to
but lack of courage obstructs
and it remains just a thought.

i want to tell my grandmother i love her.
:))

they say:
actions speak louder than words
i say:
thats when you dont mean it with ALL your heart.
i mean, i would rather not continue SHOWING my love if i could simply state it right from the bottom of my heart.
the impact is vast,
passed right from the heart of the speaker to the receiver's soul.

today i was almost trapped in the lift.
i tell you, the feeling of being hemmed in, denied contact by any means with the outside,
unable to see, to hear to reach out, however best you try to
is excruciating.

i hate being trapped

i was scared of course and thoughts ran across my mind.
im not quick thinking
so one main thing that just whizzed pass my mind was my uncompleted work for God:

GOSH!
i have yet to turn a soul for Christ, i have yet to speak to that person i wanted to encourage, i have yet to pray for this special person..
the list goes on!

evenmore so, have i even started?

the lingo: NATO
became significant.
in my case, it was
No Action Think Only

i guess it takes a near death experience to trigger the human's mind
and it only took a mere lift to have ME triggered.
oh mann i think im starting to experience "stress"
hahaha!

hey and guess what,
i applied a lesson to my life!
i walked away from temptation today!!
and it wasnt just turning my head away from ice cream:)

this is random:

Everyday they pass me by
i can see it in their eyes
empty people filled with care
headed who knows where
on they go through private pain
living fear to fear
laughter hides their silent cries
only Jesus hears.

people need the Lord.

never wondered why people mass kill?
why they do it without remorse?
how they can even bring themselves to do it?

life without jesus is like a donut, oh theres a hole in the middle of their hearts!

a kid from my mom's class answered when she asked what can kill:

"thoughts."

it gets to you.
its human nature for man to sin
we all need a saviour.

when jesus fills your heart
he satisfies your soul
like a pastry nugget in a donut hole!

-6:30:00 AM
`els